Thinspo :)

Merry Chrismas to all of you - next week any way !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here is some seasonal thinspo for you <3

sorry :(

okay im bad at these things... while i was away:
i had a psych assesment
I got diagnosed with OCD
I can lose any more weight im stuck at 134
My paranoia has got worse
Thats about it...
i WILL update atleast once a week i promise :)

sorry :(

sorry i haven't updated but i was quite busy with going back so school ... year 11 wow that feels weird i have me GCSE's in about 5 months and i get a little queasy thinking about it ... so starting next blog i'm going to throw in the towel and just making this a pro ana blog cause its had to think of things to say that doesn't involve me ed ... so i would unfollow me now if that bothers you ...

well about school then i really love biology and am so excited about doing the dissections !
well here is some more of my favourite thinspo for you all to enjoy :)

sorry i probably should have updated before now but i had nothing to tell so i didn't :/

 but i went to my friends birthday party and saw loads of people i haven't seen i years ( i moved and went to a different school ) and it was great i walked in and saw their jaws drop and think wow what happened to her and where is the fat girl we used to know ??? i rocked and she had a disco so i went home with aching feet but a smug smile :D :D

 I forgot to mention on my last post about my ballet show i was awesome and the dance went perfectly and the backstage talks were so funny :P so the finale was amazing and the costume where so cool, they made me look really slim !!!

                                   Hugs Sophie xx
"An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist - but ordinary's just not good enough today."

So I went to see my therapist and apparently I have a thing called body dismorphia ?! Anyway after an hour he concluded that I am better than I say and that I do it to myself and that it's just a phase Im going through and that after a while I'll grow out of it...

Any I found some thinspo (well I think it is) here it is
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Dancing

So I have a dance show in two weeks and have been rehearsing like mad... My feet ache but I lost weight so I can't tell if I am happy or not ?!
I went to see bridesmaids the other day at the cinema and managed to not eat a thing while I was there even though my friends wanted me to. :P

I am on the athletic team at school so there's lots of practice for that and I realised that with all this going on my head is spinning and I haven't had a chance to think about my school work let alone when I'm next going to eat ...

I haven't been on in a while but can I please have some more reviewers or am I only talking to one person ... If I am that makes me feel weird... Thank you for the comments left onthe last post they made me feel so much better and that was more than most things have done !!

I wanted to know if anyone has ever been so tired of eating yet at the same time tired of not eating ??!!

" so the reflection in the mirror shows what everyone else sees ! "
Hugs Sophie xx

RANT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not alot more

so i had a sleepover on Saturday and my friend was on my computer on facebook so forgot to log off ... then i got a computer ban and got it back this morning just went onto facebook but it was on her account ( i didn't realise ) and found a lot of messages from her to my other friend saying how crap i am, how fat i am, how annoying i am, how i ruin everything, how i am an attention seeker, how because i am off all the time( obvious reasons involving doctors appointments ) no one cares and that when one of the is off i bug people, how because i don't eat i am obviously a failed anorexic because i cant be, i don't look it - news flash actually i am bulimic with restrictive tendencies - as if i didn't have enough problems with my body image! thanks guys really grateful for it and to add insult to injury they said about how i am a crap friend in general and that i needed to stop thinking about my own problems and more about other people.

and now i don't know what to do i mean my supposed friends hate me - they don't even know about the eating disorder so what would they do then - my mum is insistent that i don't have a problem and i feel like screaming its 2am and i finally got up and wrote down my feeling like my therapist suggested and to tell you something i don't feel any better...

i wonder if i did die would they even care ?! now i feel hopeless i thought that my friends would be there for me the girl said she would take a bullet for me so am i over reacting or is that two faced ????

"i do this for me, for the insecurities that haunt me"

                                                                         Hugs Sophie xx

Thank you i finally looked at milkshake diets and realised that OMG if i have to go on the diet that costs that much to do every day then i might as well put my money down the drain thanks to rebound effects when i stop taking them...

I'm so excited about the dance show in July it has massive rehearsals that last all day so no time to eat and no one takes any notice...


So my parents finally grew a backbone and instead of ignoring the ed they decided to put me in therapy( so not what i wanted ) i think i preferred them before actually, One sure fire way to annoy councilors sit in stony silence perfectly still and not making eye contact for an hour !!!!! it was actually quite rewarding and quite funny.

" I'm the one that has to die when it's time for me to die so let me live my life the way i want to live it "

                                                         Hugs Sophie xx

Hi!!!!!!!!

I finally got my first follower ... Yay...
I had a great time on my holiday in france the sun was shining and I topped up on my tan, so now I'm a nice golden brown.

I heard of the milkshake diet and the milk diet but can't find what to do... Does any one know??? If I find out I will post it up ;)


Please can I have more followers they make me happy and want to blog more !!!!!! Thank you to cookie though you made my day !!!

'You have to believe in yourself. And you have to down deep within the bottom of your soul, feel that you can do the job that you've set out to do'

Love and hugs Sophie xoxox

Sorry I haven't posted in a while but I was busy ... But now the exams are over I should be back to my usual scatter brained self :P I found an ana buddy . She has an amazing diet out there called the ltd and it works go to www.livethindiet.weebly.com ...it's less restrictive than others but gives the same fantabulous results !!!



"shoot for the moon because if you miss then at Least you will land in the stars"

Hugs Sophie Xx

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr thanks to hotmail being stupid it wont let me log into my account so my new account is landofana@hotmail.co.uk. 
 


 Sorry for the short update but am not feeling very inspired at the moment...
 
 Remember when life gives you lemons keep them because - hey free lemons ;)      (this made me smile today)


 hugs Sophie
 

What i have eaten today...
 1x powerade lite- 8 cals
 2x cherry tictacs - 10 cals
1x maryland cookie- 55cals !!! :(
1x hot chocolate lite- 30 cals
 Total calories= 103

 Feeling happy about that, but why has the image in the mirror not changed.

 Things to do this week:
 Find an ana buddy- I need the inspiration for new workouts and diets
 Study! Study! Study!- big exams coming up soon :s 
 
 Stay strong- don't give up on a dream that's so close

 Hugs Sophie

Starting up

After being bulimic and anorexic for about two years i decided to get off my ass and write a blog. The blog is pro ana/mia but is for people going down this spiraling road already, not those who wish to become like this.

The stats

    I should probably tell you about myself:
My name is Sophie and i have been a ballet dancer since i was little( this was probably where my problems started). I enjoy reading and listening to music. I play piano and am getting ready to do my exams in summer. I have recently completed the wii fit challenges much to my delight. I love going for bike rides and hope to be getting a bmx soon.

 Thats about it since i'm not a very interesting person...
  If anyone needs anyone to talk to or just a friend going through the same thing then feel free to email me at sophierichardson@hotmail.co.uk. 

Stay strong... the world may be better tomorrow.

                                                                             
                                                                 Hugs Sophie